Episode 7- a special blog from Sandra…

We received a nice amount of comments, emails, phone calls, and actual people coming up to us asking “Where the hell were you?!” in regards to last weeks episode.  You know something, I don’t know what to say and apparently neither does the producers who took 5+ months of footage of us.  It is what it is.  I guess the editors that are working on this show clearly aren’t the producers from Jersey Shore.  Eh, whatever. I throw my hands up at that one.  We want you to tell VH1 how you feel.   And thank you all for the feedback…all we can say is we are gracious for your kind words.

Now, let’s move on to tonight’s episode…

Sandra:

That night was one of the worse nights of my life.  There could have been things done to avoid it.  You have no idea how BADLY this has beat me up inside. I can’t relive it at all and please understand that anything you saw tonight did NOT happen as bad as it may seem.  It breaks my heart and destroyed me when I saw the preview.  DESTROYED ME! I literally was so upset that I cried for 6 hours and couldn’t stop.  The betrayal I felt, the angst, and the hurt were so unbearable that I couldn’t breathe.  I wanted to nothing but cower in the house and not show my face. Yes it was shame. Yes, I am really still upset over this whole thing. And yes, I literally beat myself up over this, which is what I predicted and told the producers when it happened.  While the show portrays one thing, reality, actual life, will show you another, which is peaceful, and nothing like what have you seen.  In fact there is a lot of love between the 2 families, and it’s sad that this had to be seen. All I can say is that there is LOVE there and that this show certainly doesn’t seem to know how to show it.

The fight did not start because I was drinking too much. The whole thing was completely edited.   A particular camera man TORMENTED my brother.  He was the one who refused to put his camera down when the fight was going on, while the rest of the crew did. In fact, the camera was up everyone’s ass making the situation that much more uncomfortable. He really should have had more respect and put the camera down, but since he was not part of our regular crew, maybe he felt he was in the right. For the record, our crew did an amazing job on there part, I just wish they left this tool at home.  Now since there was so much going on, my Joey did not see nor know that this was happening, and just thought that there was nonsense drama.  Joey said to me that if he knew the actual situation, he would have handled things differently.

 And what’s more amusing is that words were put in our mouths in this episode.  When people were on the bus, little captions at the bottom read one thing, while our lips said another. For example, a caption read that my brother said that “Joe needs to shut his mouth”… HE NEVER SAID THAT! Really? And My Joey wasn’t even fighting with him on the bus! No one was fighting at that point.   I guess the editors wanted to juice up the drama, because clearly there were no fighting words said.

 Also notice my 4 outfit changes from various interviews, before the party even took place. I remember those outfits because I actual had them set aside for the interviews, and the only recent one was my purple strapless dress. All the other outfits were from interviews prior to that night…like weeks and months prior. Chop up all that footage to make for a scene that was beyond stupid.  And one more thing that really makes me crazy is that the scenes from the bus were completely chopped up, leading everyone to believe that Joey is a control freak and doesn’t let me have a good time.  Not the case. 

Which will now lead me to have to say this;

I really can’t stand the way my HUSBAND (yup SURPRISE!) has been portrayed on this show.  Literally makes me sick.  My love of my life, my EVERYTHING, is portrayed as an animal.  Well let me tell you something, he is far from it.  Joey has been my life line.  That whole soul mate thing is true.  Whatever it takes, he makes sure it better than 100% for me.  Did you know he literally GAVE me our wedding?  Yup, he worked his ASS off to make sure his girl had the wedding of her dreams. 

What is really sad is that you don’t get to see what a good man he is.  My husband works hard to support me. Call me old fashion, but that is something a man should do.  I can honestly say he is the bread winner and I take pride in saying that.  And to all you feminist psycho’s out there just SHUT UP already. You’re just all uptight because you don’t have someone that loves you enough to take care of you.  He has the quality’s that make up a GOOD man; he has a business, he’s supportive, he has talent, he is strong, he is a family oriented person and he LOVES me. There are plenty of other DOUCHE BAG men out there that deserve to hear your mouth. 

 Joe is doing what he can to make my life the best life it can be.  You have no clue how many times I have fallen off track and he was there to pick my sorry ass off the floor and encourage me to get out there and try again.  Or how many times I felt bad about myself and how he was there to tell me that I am Sexy and perfect.   My husband makes me feel like a woman; he respects me and my body and would never put me down. 

I go to bed at night and I always pray to God to just let Joey have good things in his life.  I very rarely pray for myself; it’s always for him and our families.  I just want to let you all know that my Joey has been the best thing to ever happen to me. I mean, I am crying as I write this because compared to what is out there, I am really blessed, and sadly, there are these people who try to tell me other wise based on a REALITY show.

Joe, I know you don’t know that I wrote this… and I just wanted to tell you that I love you with all my heart.  Screw the show and screw your stupid critics; WE have the best relationship in the world.  And I love you no matter what they say J